I owe you an apology. I was misguided. I thought I could change things through creativity and understanding; that truth would triumph; good would win in the end. And even as I write that, it sounds hopelessly naive. I genuinely thought I might make a difference.
My solicitor, who hasn’t known me for long, has called me an idealist twice, both occasions saying it like it was a dirty word. Its true people like myself are probably a little more open to being exploited by damaged individuals like HOWARD.
And I’m afraid, when I got drawn into putting up a fight, I may have dragged you along in my delusion that David could beat Goliath.
This is real life. David’s been marmalised. Goliath leaves the messy scene intact with an only an annoying headache and slightly less cash in his pocket.
It’s over for me in terms of fighting HOWARD and his friends. I’m outnumbered and out-financed. The only thing that remains is that if they won’t agree to remove the confidentiality clause – I will have to ditch my solicitor and represent myself to Tribunal. It’s my worst nightmare, but I’m in this process and it’s too late to back out.
Truth is, I think I may have got it wrong. Fighting for my cause changed nothing.
I’m not saying don’t fight...I’m just saying eventually you will have to chalk it up to experience and move on. Whether you cut your losses or fight all the way, it's hard, unjust and unrewarding. When my solicitor talked about how HOWARD would probably have to pay his share of my settlement out of his own pocket, all I thought of was HOWARD’S children. When you think about it like that, there are no winners.
There has to be a better way to resolve these things...
In the meantime, I’ll be here for you, like you’ve been here for me. If bullies are going to win as a rule, we need to support each other. As long as we’re trying to make a difference - maybe we’ll get there.
See you next week. Take care of yourselves and thanks again.
- Bullied By The Boss
- Welcome to my blog. My pen name is Eva James. I'm an aspiring writer paying the bills working as a legal secretary. Relentlessly bullied by my former boss, I looked for another job but the recession hit. Feeling trapped, I recorded everything in this blog, which serves as a revealing insight into workplace bullying. WEEK 1 starts the story and, as the weeks progress, you'll note what starts as banter soon spirals out of control. Sadly, it's all true. Whilst along the way I've found alternative employment, my passion for blogging about workplace bullying remains. Trevor Griffiths, legendary theatre, TV and film writer said at the outset, "I like the writing a lot: smart, cool, placed. If you were prepared/able to take your prick of a boss on, you'd marmelise him."